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Sabtu, 03 Agustus 2013

It’s been 6 years…..(My Mom's Legacy)

Today is exactly the day 6 years ago my mother passed away.
From the day she died until now, I think I never wrote anything about her.
But in the remembrance of her in this 6th year, I feel that I have to write something…
It’s not a sentimental story, but just an honest story about my mother’s legacy in me

I believe what I have become now is because of her big influence and teaching in my life.
If I can stand on my own feet and independent, it is part of her legacy in my life.

I remember since I was a little girl, my mother, who was a volunteer in our church, bring me everywhere to join her in all her activities. I remember that my priest called me “Little image of her” because he saw the resemblance of her in me, especially the cheerful and talkative (yes, that is who I am since the very beginning.. until now I guess…)

I remember I was asked to join fashion show competition in wearing national/ traditional clothes in the church. My mother prepared me to wear an uniform… and they gave a time to practice so I know the way and how to do it. I remember that time I’m still in kindergarden. When I reached the stage, I don’t want to move unless my mother will walk through me all the way (yes, I am scary at that time)… since this is a competition, no way my mom could walk me all along the way… I would have to walk by myself… so the practice session is a failure.. no matter my mom tried to persuade me, I stop walking after I reached the stage…

And the time of competition come…. I think my mom tried to find a way to make me walk the stage without her companion.. so I remember she said like this to me “I’m sorry. I cannot watch you walk the stage, because I have something to do. Just remember what we have practiced before at home.. do as it is…” and yes.. I’m hard to say no and whinning because my mother wouldn’t allowed that.. so I listened and tried my best to walk alone there and just tried to finish my part there… after that it will be over… What I didn’t know was that my mom never leave the place and her word was only to make me brave enough to walk alone.. She got me but her action made me win the first prize J

Another thing that she loved to do to me was asking me to the market. First, she just showed me around the market, this shop to buy what, this shop to buy other, etc, etc, etc. and she always introduced me to the owner of the shop and asked me to remember his/her name, so next time she asked me to go by myself I won’t get lost…  at the very beginning, I often asked… why me? My mother just simply answered…”Trust me, it’s for your own good” But later on, I found out, I love being in the market because I find my playground in the market hehehehe (yup it’s me) I can sit and talk with the owner just to feed up my curiosity on anything… and later I realized, that order made me to go shopping or travel by myself or even later on surviving on the work place outside Java… J

I also remember how people talked about how my mother is full of compassion on helping people. And sometimes I also joined her or she shared about someone who needs help. She has a really big heart to care for others when they are suffer, and I remember 2 days before she was gone, she joined also the church teams for visiting people in sickness and she told them that it is probably her last visit with the team. I’m glad her compassion influenced me to help them whenever I can although not really as much as hers..

But on recent days, what I remember now is how my mom took care of her father in Bandung when she had the chance to visit him there. And I’m lucky that almost in every school holiday (the long one), I had the chance to stay there at least 2 weeks and without I realize probably I watched just in general back then how she took care of her father patiently and somehow it stuck in my mind, like she’s telling me that when your parents need help, you should be there and help whenever you can…

Although I know, I’m way too far from my mother’s patience on taking care of her father, I think my decision on quit my job and took care of my father also was influenced by the example my mother has given. Although so many times, I question my decision and sometimes doubt whether this is the best decision I ever made, but at the end her example made me realize probably this is the best thing I should have done right now.. and just give my every worries to God to be settled..

Just a simple things and thought she taught me all my life on how to be responsible for my life and I’m proud to say that I can be who I am right now because of all the influences she has put in my life, and I can’t stop telling more and more stories about her

Although it’s been 6 years since she was gone, I feel that she is always stay with me.. her legacy will always in my heart and in my action so she can still be proud of me like I love her and very proud of her...I love you Mom…


August 3, 2007 - 2013


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